It truly does matter "what you want" and it does not have to be great artistry.

A few years into my second Aikido dojo I finally discovered that "traditional" Aikido is taught elliptically, by infinite variations, until the full techniques on which they are based become clear.

By that time I also discovered that what I really wanted was the experience and the camaraderie.

My originally white belt is now a grayish beige, and I don't care.