I know exactly what you mean, I had a similar situation when I was 14, my best mate and I were 'knife fighting' I ending accidentally stabbing him in the shoulder, we were both terrified. What still 'scares' me the most is seconds before the knife was over his throat!
Hence why I don't use weapons in my Dojo
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A man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes.
Ken