What is it that I do when I meditate?

Well, the state of meditation is like sitting there with 'no-mind'. You're focusing on breathing, when you breathe in you focus on that action, when you breathe out, you focus on that certain action.

Thoughts that come is like those thoughts you have when you're in a 'runner's high'. It will take some time before your mind runs freely and you're still able to focus on breathing. In Muay Thai this is called Pranha, or internal power. Chi or Ki in short but it's not a power source like internal martial arts.

As for me talking with him again? Doubt it, he already hates my guts so much I don't think we'll able to get on terms again. The way he's been acting, I'd rather put a fist through his mouth, but thanks for your advice. I think I'll do that from now on if I meet any other sceptical body-builders.

-Taison out

Oldcoach is right of course, but right doesn't mean it's do-able. Asking a 20-something to do that sort of thing is like canonizing Mike Tyson.

When I read Oldcoach's post before reading your reply, I was hoping aginst hope that you would give it a try. It would have been a supreme test of letting go of your Ego-Demon (which has been and is still gnawing away your liver) once and for all, and if you really succeeded as outlined by Oldcoach, I would shave my head bald (or what little is left thereon) in commemoration of such an astounding event.

Still, you never know; stranger things have happened.

Liberate yourself from your suffering...forgive him and move on.


Dhammapada:

He abused me, he beat me, he defeated me, he robbed me of my property. Whosoever harbor such thoughts will never be able to still their enmity.

Never indeed is hatred stilled by hatred; it will only be stilled by non-hatred — this is an eternal law.

— Dhp., vv. 4-5

Letting go of ego is really hard, it's not like quitting cigarettes.

I read Oldcoach's post, although I do agree it was the right thing to do, I wouldn't. I'd never imagine myself stepping down on that man, nor enlisting his useless help. I've got Cord and Dereck who KNOWS what they're doing and are more or less experts in the field. This guy is just so full of [censored], I'd rather believe if a kindergarten kid saying "my daddy's an FBI agent".

Letting go of my ego will be hard, but I've decided that I'll rather be happy than right, and I'll just step back from all this mumbo jumbo society thing. I'm devoting myself to training and regaining my self-esteem that I've lost.

It's amazing how the mind can fool itself for so long. I thought I was happy with what I had, but I just noticed that it's not real, it's just fake imagery. Friends? If I had friends like that, I rather spend my life in solitary confinement with a sandbag and name it Wilson.

I've got great pride in myself. I'm proud of who I am, and the little things I've accomplished, and there's nothing that can take that away from me. I might not be a special person, but I will not under any circumstances bow down to any enemy, past or present.

Ah Chun shu shu, I'm sorry if I didn't live up to your expectations, but I will try from now on. If you give me an advice, I'll take it and consider.

I feel my life is like at a cross-road right now. I feel like I need to pursue my dreams, and do what I like, not make other people happy all the time. I've decided even though it's a lonely path, I feel happier this way.

Yup, I'm in my twenties. Second youngest mod here on the site.

-Taison out

Liberate myself from suffering. .

I forgive him and hope he become wiser with age, but I also have to thank him for steering me into the right way. The path which I should've pursued. It's like I took a wrong turn somewhere and he put me into the right course.

But at the same time, I hope he burns in hell, and rots for all eternity.

-Taison out

I suppose it takes a warrior spirit to face the darker rooms in the human heart.

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But at the same time, I hope he burns in hell, and rots for all eternity.

-Taison out

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Something I have yet to develop.

I might seem all tough on the outside, but deep inside I'm really fragile.

-Taison out